i was listening to eminem today. why do i like him?
bleh. so yeah. i wrote my girlfriend/fiance a long e-mail today because i am sort of jelous of this old friend of her's who i feel like she thinks about morte than me.... now i feel like an asshole cuz i'm afraid the letter will hurt her.
also, i am going to pick her up at her parent's house in a little while, and she sort of just told her mother today that we were engaged, so this will be the first time she'll see me while knowing we are engaged. i feel like a fuck head more than a fruhead these days too, cuz her mom had to bring me to be detoxed a couple weeks ago. talk about embarrassment.... she'll probably ask me to make sure i am sober forever for her daughter. i plan to be, but it's still scary and fucked up.
must go now. i am at MY parent's house and i don't want to be here any longer. i hate it here. i am so glad i don't live here anymore.
oh, i almost took a percocet today that i found in my room, but i threw it out. that was really hard for me, but it's good i didn't take it cuz opiates are sort of like a drug of choice now, and plus i'm taking naltrexone, and that would sorta make me ill.
peace, Jymi
